The Trouble with Jesus
by Constance Hastings

Are you like this all the time? Say one thing? Doing something else? How are we supposed to understand you, let alone believe you, when you move like that? We need a steady vibe to be able to trust you. Otherwise, following you is as chaotic and wild as any other option. We’re hunting for peace, not more problems.

Could it be faith is not a fully convinced, blindly confident mindset? What if faith isn’t walking around 100% sure all the time? Could it be real faith actually needs a little doubt in the mix, like “maybe not” sitting right next to the “maybe so”? What if faith and doubt aren’t enemies but two sides of the same coin?

How do you get out of bed in the morning when the day, the world is still shrouded in darkness?... How are you supposed to stand up when grief, anger, and anxious fear are sitting heavy in your soul? Why even open your eyes when all you see just slices pain through whatever little faith you got left?

Letting someone get close like this? That’s terrifying. I’d rather tuck away all the parts that people could ridicule, the stuff that makes people look at you sideways. I’d never want someone seeing all that mess who’s way better than me, cleaner than me, holier than me. Why does God have to come so close?






